2/1/11 was my last blog post on here. Not quite sure why I wait so long to write things that are in my head every day, so I am changing that. I will begin updating this once or several times a week. Here’s a new start to what’s Beneath Me.
It’s crazy how we all think we have to be something we’re not to get our family or friends to love us. I know I am going out on a limb here saying that, but we have all done it at least once in our lives. It’s human to get feelings of loneliness or being empty. It’s human to contemplate the love we receive from others and if it’s real or not. I know that I have struggled a time or two in my life with trying to find my place. I think that is one of the toughest things to do.. find your place in a world of billions that you already feel is taken by someone else. Truth is, someone is always going to be on the same paths we are on, but they will never be able to deliver what you can individually. We all were put here to make some kind of difference, some kind of change, and most importantly some kind of impact.
I used to think that the emptiness I had could be filled by things I was passionate about, but it can’t. Your void for emptiness starts in yourself. You must create the love you want to receive, the dreams you want to chase, the place you want to live, the friends you want to have, the passion that burns deep inside of you, and most importantly the motivation to do all of these things. Life is a dark place without motivation. I know first hand that the darkest place I have been in could have easily been changed around if I had motivation during it.. but I didn’t. It’s normal to lose that UMPH sometimes, just make sure you find it again. We are all so much more than a face in this world. We are gifted with our own talents, blessed with our own blessings, loved with our own loving, and special with our own divine speciality.
I can’t fathom the dark place that the teenagers were in that committed suicide last year. I can’t fathom a world that refuses to accept, even when they are the ones looking for acceptance. I can’t fathom someone ever thinking that what they are is less than beautiful. There is no possible way to be a perfect person, but there are millions of ways to be a good one. You are a part of a generation that will go down in history one way or another. Our choices along this way are if we want to be remembered for our dedication to bettering the place we live and the people who live with us, or worsening it. Choice is on you. Your decision can impact someone else’s - your voice is valuable.
I’m here now to tell you that it will be okay. That dark place you’re in, the heart break you are going through, the feeling of being unacceptable, your lonely heart, your search to be loved, your dreams, your finances, your faith.. it will be okay. I have never been in one of those places and not recovered from it. And surprisingly, the most beautiful thing about having those moments is getting out of them. There is nothing more inspiring than overcoming something that once overcame you.
Life will go on. The time we’re on will never stop, but the casualties will. Learn to grow when you’re being pulled down. Learn to dive into your faith when life is showing you reasons not to. I never really thought I would be one of those people that simply say “Life Goes On,” but it does. We have every chance to make our lives everything we want them to be. Don’t be scared to follow your heart. I was told so many times that my dreams were out of reach and still am told that to this day sometimes, but look at me, I’m still going. Even people close to me don’t see the beauty in my dreams, but that’s okay. They don’t have to see the beauty in MY dreams, because my dreams bring a beauty that no one but myself can see. Same for yours, whatever it is in your life that you are passionate about PURSUE! I had to learn how to be strong when the weak surrounded me. Be strong and pick them up, because they can be strong and pick someone else up.
Everyone has a broken way, but don’t let that way completely break you. When life throws you down, get back up. Battered, bruised, tired.. get back up, because that step back up is one more step towards that destination you want to be at. Remember, life truly is about the beauty in the attempt, and even more so it’s about the beauty waiting to unveil in each one of us. You have what it takes, and I sure hope I can see it one day.